sad or happy?

got an mc today..
down with flu...
but..
had to wait for like hours at the polyclinic...
super sian...
next time must get ppl to go along with me...
anyway...
went to watch talentime today...
not bad...
though i didn't quite enjoyed the 2nd part of the show...
the trio is going to win i guess...
drama minsitry should win also..
and also the african lady is winning ba...
thats my prediction...
had to sit with sharon for nite session...
joa was sitting alone...
bo bian...
not much people around...
i enjoyed the serving...
to be able to worship...
without thinking about time...
pos was great too...
NP has a good chance to win...
too bad i nv join...
lol...
yeah...
thats the happy part...
now comes the sadness...
wonder how i managed to keep up my confidence...
pimpled face...
weird scar on left side of face...
untidy hair and stuffs...
thank God i managed to get by so far...
ignoring stares from other ppl...
i just hate it...
when ppl try to bring me down...
and yet i can't do nothing back...
yes i know i'm ugly...
there is no need to point it out IN MY FACE...
it hurts...
the lousy things ppl would say to me...
it sucks...
what a day...
spoilt by a single comment...
this brings me to yet another point..
how can i help my own face?
i dun know the answer...
i'm not a rich kid...
i have no choice but to leave it alone for now...
what a world...
and in the end i still have to stand up by myself...
face this stupid world...